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Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Yesterday after class - dozed off in the train
At night - konked out at 1am
This morning - dozed off in train and almost missed the station to alight.
I was truly tired.

Seems like my insomnia had been tackled for the time being.

|Lady| 10:32 AM
A leopard never changes its spot○
Saturday, May 16, 2009




Despite how much evidence and experience that proves changes never reminds stagnant, there are however, things that forever remains unchanged.

Like a leopard. It never changes it spots.

So there too are, things in life that you can never expect that of to change.

Like the fidelity of men. Not all of course. A handful remains impeccable.

But majority aren't. It's the work of God or Mother nature or whoever that created mankind lah.

Worry not, lao niang me not being fooled or anything.

Just that something happened that kinda made me feel quite very.. exasperated.

I'd think I have successfully portrayed myself as 1) a bimbo, 2) a happy child with perfect family, 3) the naive one, 4) the spoilt princess who doesn't know what's going on outside the castle.

Which got me further exposed to the craftiness of some dickheads out there.

*clap clap* I've yet again, seen the works of life and a very good show put up. Slightly than the ones I've seen during my younger days. Not bad, quite polished acts I'd say.

Here they are, pretending all so vulnerable and dignified and trustful.

There, they subconsciously showed the signs of nothing but the opposite.

I laughed at their pathetic attempts to con any Mary, Jane or Bettys out there. Boy you sure messed with the wrong Mary Jane Betty I tel'ya.

The gestures of flirting are e.v.e.r.y.w.h.e.r.e my oh my it tickles me...

And I bet it sure sucks that a mediocre looking girl, did not fall into the willy tricks of him, the very handsome.

Indeed, blessed with the looks. But perhaps God has forgotten to bestow him a brain which unfortunately, the mediocre had quite plentiful of.

Well God bless you for your handicap my boy. God bless you.

Or probably God has long forgotten a child like him and sent a devil to avenge the angels that he'd broken their fragile, lil' crystal heart? Hmmm?

Oh you little fool.. silence does not make the devil bow in the game of lure, silence only makes you, end your own game.

It's like an English court, where ladies try their best to seduce and men get lust by them. It's a warfield.

I laugh at the mundanities of the game. For it remains, still the same. Same as it was 10 years back. The rules never change. It only gets improvised.

I laugh at the fact that, it was once again, presented to me like an useless rock disguising as a precious gem.

I laugh at you, you fool.

For I seen the truth, clear as the mountain spring.

|Lady| 12:01 AM
Word vomit○
Friday, May 15, 2009

Update 4:43pm: Alright, I still succumbed to help that kuku to
walk out of his negativity.
And he agreed on letting me help.
Thank god.

I'M MAD TIRED.

Past few days of insufficient rest accumulated to my current exhaustion.

And as if it's not bad enough, kuku had to preach his preaches of pessimism. Diaoz.

Note, this kuku ain't a close friend of mine. It just that I will try to persuade be it Tom, Dick or Harry. But not lately.

It looks like I'm getting less patient with people who are negative. I used to spend unmeasurable amount time and effort to encourage them into the path of positivity, but now I cannot seem to invest my very limited and precious time on that aspect.

I tend to leave them alone.

And then get angry with myself for leaving them in the lurch.

You see, it's not easy to keep on motivating people. For I've done it more than a dozen times and it is really a taxing task. Many times you have to delegate alot of your attention for that person in order for him or her to be attached to you and tries to seek your guidance ultimately.

Not forgetting you have to step in at the right time, with the right solution, speaking the right words. It is definitely a relieve to help someone, but I guess I'm not so great to not let it eat into my life yet not affected by it. Meaning, I do get depressed there and then, trying to help them.

Which is very contradicting, right? I mean, how are you suppose to help people when you cannot even get yourself settled?

And isn't it very pathetic to get yourself so charred by helping people? It's like curing people to make yourself sick. Or, claiming you wanna help, but ended up complaining at the end of the day? That's very sad right?

Wah at this stage, I made myself sound like an immaculate saint. Which I am not lah... I'm not that magnanimous... yet.

Thus explains why I'm avoiding to help these days. I must make sure I'm sane and healthy, else I cannot even afford the least help and return.

Again, I must proclaim - the decreasing of ability to help applies to people I'm not so close with. When it comes to my love ones, well they always know my soft-spot...

|Lady| 10:10 AM
tsk!○
Tuesday, May 12, 2009

I ish overslept this morning. If it's not for daddy knocking my door, I'd have easily snored till 10am. And thanks to him, I woked up at 8.30am.

Still late. But not hopelessly late.

Cost me 14 bucks to reach office. At 9.15am. Managed to grab my teh still. So, am a happy girl. Teeheehee.

That's not the edgy part. Thing is, I GOT TONNES OF THINGS TO DO LAH. Good and bad. Bad thing is, I can hardly breathe, see my dad, neither my lovelies. It feels like I'm being isolated or something. All I see is work work work, rush rush rush, assignment assignment assignment.

Good thing will be I'll be having a subject lesser to mug. So June should be a breathier month as far as I'm concern.

|Lady| 12:26 PM
張智成 - 爱来的刚好 / 暗戀○
Monday, May 11, 2009


总是和你擦肩而过 回来看着你走
我说服自己 你从来就不属于我
也在心里偷偷想过 拥有你陪伴的生活
对我会是多么奢侈的梦
你完美的太过火 有太多的选择
我还能付出什么 除了爱你
我一无所有
爱 来得刚刚好
慢一步我 就走掉
或许上帝听见 心中的祈祷
带我从孤单里逃跑
因为爱
其实我一直 存在着你周围的角落
守护着你 陪伴着你 呼吸和脉搏
每当你受挫 我想我比谁都难过
因为我爱你 虽然我 从来不说
也许有一天 你会忽然发现我
在混乱人海 刮风下雨 都为你守侯
我要你知道 那是我心情愿承受
Because I Love You I Love You Baby
你完美的太过火 有太多的选择
我还能付出什么 除了爱你
我一无所有
爱 来得刚刚好
慢一步我 就走掉
或许上帝听见 心中的祈祷
带我从孤单里逃跑
因为爱
日复一日 重复着错过的游戏
猜测在你的心中 是否真的有我
不想一分一秒 在犹豫之间蹉跎
我在等你说你也爱我 你是我存在的理由
爱 来得刚刚好
慢一步我 就走掉
或许上帝听见 心中的祈祷
带我从孤单里逃跑
爱 来得刚刚好
慢一步我 就走掉
或许上帝听见 心中的祈祷
带我从孤单里逃跑
因为爱




四目交接的时候
不要停留太久
适可而止的问候
关心不能太过好奇也别去探索
嫉妒只能深锁如果忍不住寂寞
也不能对你说
啊好朋友
啊我的好朋友
不小心的沉默
不想让你太难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
相信我们走到另一个境界搭肩高唱友谊万万岁
要是我爱你变成了语言什么会多一些
什么会少一些就让别人去猜测
我们清白的很就让自己去承受
那种清白的闷就算我只是朋友
能不能有要求如果你发生什么
还是我想太多
啊好朋友就只是好朋友
不小心说出口
微笑中藏着难过
你会不会也曾闪过这感觉一念之间就要差一点
要是我爱你变成了利剑什么会被消灭
什么才会复原那是我的底线
继续将你暗恋


|Lady| 12:36 AM
Ace of base○
Friday, May 8, 2009

Greeted with pleasant surprise this mornings.

Albeit there was more fear than anxiety.

Came were even more surprises from my classmates. We did well.

Despite results are not everything.

It sure means somthing to the society. Unfortunately.

Like money.

Aces can be quite addictive I admit.

But the process of getting it can be a real tough job.

I wish to pocket more of you, Ace.

|Lady| 11:17 AM
*yawns*○
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
I had a horrible rest last night.

*Yawns*

Ridiculous dreams I cannot remember what were they.

Anyway I'm sleepy now and that is not a good sign because I have class later. And tomorrow. And Thursday. And Friday.

Non-stop for 4 days. Chao turban.

I pulled my hamstring while cooling down yesterday. Yesterday's jog was wrong. Seriously wrong. Everything was salah. My pace was wrong, I tasted blood while breathing, my momentum wasn't constant.

It's a miracle I didn't injured my ankle or knee during the jog.

Cindy too, commented my speed had increased.

I know, and that's exactly the reason why everything went haywire. I ran too fast. I was breathing too fast and went breathless too soon.

Soooooo sleepy.
|Lady| 10:52 AM
Brand new same old things○
Monday, May 4, 2009

Update: Ok, kukuberd finally replied.
At 4:48pm.
Damnit I sent the sms at 3 plus can?
Anyway replied is replied, I'm a happy gurl.



Blogspot's kinda odd today. Not quite really very pronto.

Most of you would have known, my company has shifted to a nearby building. Newer but smaller. Cleaner but more inconvenient. More comfy but less fun.

I ish don't like my new place. Period.

Mostly probably because I have not adapt to it yet. I'll give myself another 1 week to get use to things.

The morning in our new office commenced with tad commotion and bustle. That's because we ceased operation 3 hours earlier on Thursday and we are jammed with countless of jobs to be cleared.

Sometimes I really don't see why management keep complaining the business is not doing well and they have to cut this, cut that. When all it takes is a mere 3 hours of non operation and the entire office goes haywire.

So, it's brand new same old things. Albeit I very much wanted a fresh start in the new place.

Plus I'm feeling disturbed. Stupid kuku haven't reply my sms and I'm abnormally impatient. It's been more than ½ hour already and I have checked my mobile at least 5 times. I behave like some menopausey lao char bor.

That's why I say I'm abnormally impatient.

I'm thinking, that kuku must have been kidnapped or murdered. Else what's taking that kukudemic so long just to reply a few words right?

Maybe I'm just bored.

Incorrigibly bored.
|Lady| 3:47 PM