Quiet morning
Gahmen's not in today so everyone is pretty much skiving now. Facebooks, surfing net, msn etc. Even the phone's are skiving I think. Not ringing. Office's in a patch of slience other then some murmuring here and there it actually gets quite scary.
Placid the lake may seem, but hurricans are stirring quick underneath.
Quiet as it is this morning, there's actually alot of happenings. The peacefulness seems to be there to contrast the amount of changes and unseen bouleversement that is about to ignite.
Happenings: This morning - a colleague's last day. Yesterday - a sales colleague was asked to leave.
May - office's shifting.
Changes are good. Nothing stays unchange. I do not hate changes, I cope well with them in fact. But I feel somehow... unsettled. I feel.... larvas are accumulating everywhere that will instill the volcano.
Quiet thoughts
Couple of days for me to relax before my school starts again - the ever going race for time and results. Makes me wanna stay at home and doing nothing but tv and tv and tv. Amazing thing is, my body seems to be telling me, "Look, I've pulled us through the critical stage for YOU to go through the examinations and now it's time for me to rest, I'm weary."
Indeed, my body seems ailing these few days and so, here you are... you get to rest and recuperate...
And while my body gets to rest, my brain start wondering - planning and plotting what's next I SHOULD do, what MUST I do and what I CAN do.
Funny thing my school gave us this motivational book to read. I'm never a fan of such books. I motivate myself in MY way. Nevertheless I flipped through and read a lil...
Impressive. It sets my brain re-planning my life and direction - in a whole new perspective. Objective's still there, but prolly this time round, a new brainstorming session of how I should go about doing it, in a EVEN better way. It's like a even better remedy or cure to your current prescribed.
Or maybe it's the recent drills in mugging leads me to this thing call "Critical thinking". Not critical-critical, but positive-critical. Something which allows you to look indepth into the picture YET the big picture. It's like zooming in, then out. In again, then out again.
Interesting change I observed in me. Not that it actually affects or influence me anyhows in my appearence, but the way I plan my life. Then again, to some of you, it may seem tad too solemn and serious which dipicts - no fun.
I think it's fun can already. Fun to observe myself and the uncontrollable change.
I'm going to experiment myself, myself. I'm putting myself through a test.
Today, I'm going to see if I can find the fun in something I hate. Sure a tough thing. Very very tough. But I'm going to try nevertheless.
I'm gonna try doing cold calls in a different perspective - enjoying it instead of the opposite. If I overcome this, I'd be able to overcome the rest of the things I hate and convert them into, things I like.
But what if I'm going to learn to NOT detest someone after his or her image has been formed to my dislikes? How am I going to find the strength in the person I detest and appreciate him or her?
It's a very tedious and mind wreaking trial I'm trying to discover.
Afterall in this world, it's the result that matters. Not the activities. You can do plenty of activities yet show no results.
So no one's gonna see the amount of things you've done. It's the results that shines, afterwhich people will learn the fact that you have put in 100 times effort to make a simple thing works and yet not complaining.
That's where respect comes from, no?
And what happens if you're doing things you like?
You succeed.
It may not be monetarily. It's about finding joy in everything you do. Most importantly, is to appreciate what you have in life, in it's simplest form. That's the teaching of Zen for your information. And I personally feel that is a very difficult mindset to be attained.
I do not aim for success now, but I definitely want to outshine.
